Much needed break...

And it's like finally i got my own sweet time to rest myself at home... Been waitin for this, for so long... A deservin break i would say... But still, i need a break from SG... I wanna get myself out to Indonesia, Fillipines and all ard Asia... Somehow, life is never enough to make it worth livin... At times, i just feel like snappin my fingers and disappear to other locations which i desire...

Wish i could do that really... But comin back to reality, i still have some missin piece in my life... Those things that i've been wantin to do... My hobbies, interest and my adrenaline rush seekin adventure... Sigh... It's somethin to lose in life, in order to achieve my goals in life... But i am sure, that it will all come back to me... Like it's in the blood... For now, i'm still doin my survey on my courses... Boy, work really sucks... Here in SG, it's work your plan or abandon it all, completely... It ain't easy here... Now, my only task is to get tru it... Luckily for me, i have my Boyanese family on my back... So i have to struggle my way tru... In Allah's will, strength and permission, i'll pull tru...
Insya'Allah...

Concussion knocks on the livin,

yat...

the missin updates...

It's been a while since i last blog, be it on my book or online... Sadly say, i need to put my taughts on schoolin to next year, when the enrollment gates are open... Tellin myself to look on the bright side like, dude u're only 23 next yr... But that doesn't matter...

My up comin TP test is on the 16th July... Really comin soon... Well i really have no idea how am i feelin now... For a kick start, i'm all savin up for my future... It's gonna be costly to live my life here in SG... But still, i have to spend my time here, to round up my cash and make my move... In 5 yrs time, in God's will, i'll already have a sum of 30k in the bank... It's a lot of cash for a 27 yr old... I still feel like gettin myself a honda civic SIR or ESI tho... Not to showcase ard, but it's for my transport... But still, i have to really consider my idea... SIGH!!!... Better livin equals to great sufferings... I'm not sure if i'm made of toughness in life journey... But i'll try... Not only with my knowledge, also my capability, strength, endurance and all the things i've learnt and still learnin in life... Really need a holiday break from work and stuff... I wonder when and where...

Till my next update in life, i'll be makin mistakes and learnin from it everyday... Like other mature, human beings does... Lookin forward for the future and may Allah bless my family, my huge family, the passed on and myself...

till then,

A very chaotic life of mine,

yat...

beginins of obsticles

Tho i didn't manage to find any openins for school yet, some how, i can already feel that a few obstructions are in my way... I can sense that it's anytime soon... Well, like i say, i'd go thru it with all that i've got... Ain't gonna go back on my words... Life has it's ups and downs... So does plannins... Ain't a certain, clean and clear path bout it... The more i want, the more it multiplies...

I'll take it as a test of my will... Have to face it... I can run but can't hide from it.... Kinda sleepy and bored rite now... I'm still lookin for a course that i can enroll myself into... I've been thinkin on marine for a while... But some how, they are doin the openins for foreigners... That suck... Big time... Then again, i have to wait for it... There it goes... Another time wasted... But patience gonna pay for the better stuff... So guess i'll have to wait... For how long i'm uncertain... But never will i give up on upgradin myself... Every tick on the clock is precious... Every breath haled is bordem... It ain't gonna be easy as i taught it could be...


Till another update,

Yat...

stress to the MAX babe!!!...

Man i'm so sick and tired thinkin of it, over and over again... Just wanna get it done for once in my life... get straight to the point and grab my goals... Gosh, i feel messed up and runnin ard in circles... But guess all this happen for a reason...

Don't ask what or why... Ain't answerin that... I'd like to get my arse on somethin worth my time, focus and efforts put into... Don't wanna waste my youth life just like that... Yeah i know there is gonna be hard times and stuff... But hell, i'll work on it... There's always a solution to a problem, there's a cure to sickness except death... Imply all this theory in my head for precaution measures... SIGH!!!.... Well it's really up to the right time for me to make my move...

Marine technology or marine tech, hull and structure... Not forgettin my mc book air and cam too... Well for now just stick on with enrollin again for my studies... FRUSTRATION and EAGER is buildin up in me... My focus now is on my studies... well... Just hope to make it in by this yr... Pray for me for those who has read this note of mine... Support me, on my journey in this uncertain terrain of life...

Insya'Allah, with HIS blessings,

Yat...

Sigh!!!... Have to go for another attemp for my class 3... But it's ok... It's not the end of my life... I'll take it as an experience... But some how still feel like S*IT... Man it suck!!!... But what the hell... I have to look on the bright side... And some how i won't give up cause i know my mistakes... Thanks to the instructor... Well, i should be thankful that at least i have the chance to get the experience...

It's ok... We have to feel the pinch to get ourselves back up... It was cool tho... 2122 is the bloody car that has it's clutch loose like ****... Thanks to the cab driver who almost crash for a passenger pick up... Thanks to the IDIOT, KR, MALAY rider who cut into my bloody lane... If i know he's doin it on purpose, i'd jam brake and let him kiss my ASS... F*CKIN "P" plate f*cker!!!... Oh well, that's life... Now i can accept that i didn't make after listin down why... Sigh... Another try another day... Till then,


yat...

found FB

Just got my hands on facebook today... Cool stuff tho i must say... All my cuzzies and friends are in em... Easier for me to get in touch... Now, keepin in touch ain't gonna be the same... Cool stuff... Anyway it's 9 more days to TP... Still can't wait for it...

Wanna get it done and over with... Only then i can proceed with the other plans... Nothin much to blog today... Finally have my break from busy schedule... So yea... I'm gonna enjoy my break for now... Then back to misery again... SIGH!!!... Well, that's life... Always a mystery of a new day... Just have to keep up with the business of hectic schedules... Till then,

Yat...

friends, people ard me....

Bein busy with stuff and managin my time, is really a chaotic period of time in my life... But, it is nothin, compared to those who were in my situation before... Thanks a lot to em all for their share, with their experience, compared to mine... It's really a blessin to have known people who care like you guys does... Man i'm so touched...

It's reality that we all, each individual have their own problems... It's somethin we live with and it's part of our life... Sharin the solution was the best idea... Now, i'm all relaxed and confident for my decisions made... At lest if i fall i can share the blame with you guys too... LOL!!!! Just kiddin guys... Anyway, it's really a blessin for me to get to know you guys ard... Let God bless you guys in return... I could only produce the result and show it to all... But deep inside me, i'm thankful to all... To my best buddy KHAI, don't give up bro... When there's a will there's a way... That's how i work things out bro... I have the will, i'll sort it out my way... Now it's only to wait for me to go for my TP test before i move on to the next plan... I believe in myself that i can do it bro... I know i can... And i know it won't be as easy as it gonna be... That's my precaution that i've noted... Not gonna give up, is gonna be my attitude... For my future, is gonna be my strength for me, to lift me up when i'm down... I've to be positive in life now... Not gonna back down no more... I've found my weakness, and i'm workin it out...

I hope, that with this new attitude and plans that i'm workin on now, is gonna be achieved one day... In Allah's will.... Once again, i'll like to shout a BIG THANK YOU, to you guys out there... Let God bless all of you, for your future... My sincerity, respect and salute to you guys.... Take care and i'll see you guys ard again for sure....

Yours sincerely,

Yat...

P/s,
ERPM guys, thanks for sharing the time and taughts with me... all the time spent will be a good memories that will last for a long time with me now, and in my future... take care and thanks for bein a part, in my life....